It's not really that hard to believe

Usually when people look back on a year of their life they start out by using the phrase "It's hard to believe that..." followed by things like "... year is already over!" or "...we're already !" or even "...we only have years left at !" 


I start to wonder if the reason that we start remiscing by stating that it's hard to believe that we are where we are is because we don't remember all of the things that happened that previous year. 


For example, I was talking to a friend at the end of this last school year and I caught myself saying "It's hard to believe that I'm going to be a junior next year!" And then I stopped and thought about it and realized that it's actually not hard to believe at all. This year was such an amazing year and it felt so fantastically long that I'm more surprised that I'm not going to be a senior next year if anything. I was accepted into the Wartburg Choir, participated in Christmas with Wartburg, was a part of hosting the first ever Ultimate tournament at Wartburg, met and became friends with a crazy guy who proved to be an excellent roommate, became closer friends with a few fantastic individuals, maintained incredibly close friendships with people who live in a different state than me 9 months out of the year, went on an amazing week long midwest tour with Choir, managed to stay on the Dean's list for another year, got to hang out with my friend Ethan in Chicago, was voted to be a captain of the Ultimate team for next year, and so many other things. I can't honestly say that after all of those things happened that it is even slightly hard to believe that I am starting my second half of college next year. 




I remember that I always used to be incredibly excited for what was coming next that I would never really treasure what I had right now. I'd be so excited for summer starting as early as March or April that I would stop living as fully as I could throughout those months. I am happy because I have finally reached a point where I am just happy for whatever is happening at the moment. This is something that I plan to focus on this summer, being completely present wherever I am and fully soaking in everything that I experience this summer. I am reading a book by someone who used to be the youth director at my church back in the day. She talks about how being fully present is such an important thing and that when she hears from people that say they don't belong somewhere she wonders how much time they invested in trying to belong. I regret that I have been in many situations in my life that I haven't been fully present and I recognize that it's something that I need to work on. Due to this, if anyone happens to call or text me this summer and I don't reply it's either because I am at work or simply with a friend hanging out. 


That's all for now, I'm attempting to keep my posts less rambling and more focused on one thing but we'll see how that goes. 


It's really not that hard to believe that life is going exactly how it should.